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Even though some time has past… you haven’t left my thoughts. I still wonder what could...

Sat, 01 Dec 2012 22:54:25 -0500

Even though some time has past… you haven’t left my thoughts. I still wonder what could have been, even though that possibility has faded long ago. I’m no longer secure in this world. I’m more lost and hopeless than ever before with no where to turn and no one to turn to… I’m just alone.

This is what is currently growing inside me (6 weeks)

Fri, 19 Oct 2012 17:06:18 -0400

This is what is currently growing inside me (6 weeks)

So I am once again embarking upon an intense journey which i have no idea where it shall lead. I am...

Mon, 15 Oct 2012 23:23:14 -0400

So I am once again embarking upon an intense journey which i have no idea where it shall lead. I am currently filled with excitement and happiness but also a touch of fear. I now need to be more perfect than I have ever been before because I have a baby to care for now… I have to be healthy so he/she can grow up with the same strength I was afforded. I will still accomplish all my previously set goals no matter the difficulty but now my priorities are changing…

I haven’t yet lost hope! My dreams are bigger than ever and I will accomplish them despite the...

Mon, 10 Sep 2012 10:47:59 -0400

I haven’t yet lost hope! My dreams are bigger than ever and I will accomplish them despite the ever increasing price I must pay ( not having hardly any social life outside of projects/school ). Wish me luck! This is the most difficult journey I have have ever ventured on… I will NOT give up.

Send me your guidance & wisdom dear friend...

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 21:56:04 -0400

Here I am once more… At another cross-roads in my life I suppose. I finally feel like I have managed to place myself back on the rails so I can follow the track… Where it will lead I am still unsure. I have come to recognize this power inside of me. The energy I’ve held inside for so long is beginning to burst out, and my freedom seems like a possibility once more. My dreams still seem far beyond reach. My failures far outweigh my accomplishments. It is not over. I suppose I never realized the strength I’ve held inside for so long. Now that I’ve gained a bit more wisdom, and come to know myself better, I have seen what lies beneath the junk. I want to cry for help…Drop to my knees and beg anyone to give me a small piece of advice that I can hold close to my heart…Where are you in my desperate time of need? The frustrations are building, soon they will reach the sky and how can I possibly contain something bigger that’s building beyond myself? I want to love everyone, I want PEACE. Please find me… Teach me. Let me breathe once more, and take away the pain of the world. I am seeking you, so please find me.

My poetry

Sat, 25 Aug 2012 20:34:30 -0400

When you begin to take the time to explore the depths of the mind you may find that the invisible line separating your thoughts from mine is non-existant. It diminishes the creating of time when a second seems like a lifetime. Move forward, pause and then hit rewind. Don’t resign to follow the norm. Get caught in the storm and explore the world without being told or sold a product that can lead to the extinction of a race because one day we will have to face ourselves and what will we have left to say or think?
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If you take a moment to see all that is taken for granted maybe the antics will stop and we can drop the disguises that we wear and appreciate all that is there. Secretly everyone cares and only few will dare to step outside the comfort zone to be alone and embrace life without worrying about who’s wrong or right.
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Now I can see the reality of love…Before it begins, it quickly ends and becomes a memory of what once was.
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Learn to discern the words that are spoken while your mind is awoken but don’t choke on your thoughts when they’re broken.
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Cordial expression, abating the aggression that is lingering, mingling with depression. If you look inside you may find the strength to breathe instead of seeth over unpaid bill. Fill your time with cheap thrills and exercise the skills to deal with the sadness, developing into madness. Take a step back and act without thought. Waste not, want not. There’s only so much time, stretch it far. Heed the warning signs while raising the bar.
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Anxiety eats away the darkest depths of the soul. I’m simply looking for a prince but keep ending up with a fool. Myself, I can’t escape. The road is endless and I’m afraid of what awaits. At the end I know what I will have to face…All of the mistakes. I’ve been running away from my own fear, but it’s silently stalking me, I can’t steer clear. It’s been awhile since the sun has awoken me. I’ve been dreaming that something is choking me. I want to dissapear from everything, but in the end you can’t have what’s never been destined.
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If you’re searching you may miss the intricate design of this rhyme. Walk the line and pay no mind to the oppressors whom are merely digressors filled with empty space. If there was once something there, it has since been erased. The world has been faced with collapse. Corporate solutions of greed brought the economy to it’s knees and the world has elapsed into misery. We are on the brink of destruction, the people are fighting into an erruption of unity to bring peace and cease the corruption in hierarchal systems. Release the encryption so that everyone may know the truth.
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I’m staring at a blank page that is my future. The slate is clean, shining with a gleam that is blinding, binding me to scribble words or throw paint accross the emptiness that surrounds with a deafening sound. Nothing has ever been so clear; why do these fears still linger…Taunting me to escape in simplistic ignorance. They say it’s bliss but I have a feeling that it’s just a death wish, for why live for nothing? Is it too much to ask for something or someone to show me the way, to build a house from clay and utilize the decay of this world to create beauty instead of pain. I will bend the light if I must, creating the universe from a single speck of dust; transforming my reality and all those around. I’m wondering if these thoughts have been found amid the chaos errupting from my dreams. How will I ever accomplish this if I am not even free?
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Money is the epitome of existance. You may miss out if you will not listen and christen your subsistance for resistance.
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Spending 15 grand a semester just to stay alive with 52 percent of college graduates trying to make it by on unemployment checks or working all night and day at 4 jobs and never any time to play. By the time I leave this school with expectations high, I’ll be rolling around in 200,000 dollars in debt and no way to win the fight. So what choice do we have to but to become slaves to the government and private banks for their loans?—-to be cont.

Censor myself

Wed, 27 Jun 2012 20:30:25 -0400

How can I say what I want when I constantly have to worry about who might see and what they might think? Sure, many of you may scoff and think to yourselves that you don’t care what other people think, but just wait until you realize how much you do and should care. How free are we? Well think about this; we are consistently being bombarded by advertisements, media and commercials that are targeted and derived to induce us to become brainwashed, materialistic frenzied consumers. Not only that, but those same media sources are what we all rely on to communicate and receive our news from. We also tend to search for jobs online as well now, and with the internet and networking websites being so heavily used, (to be cont..)

“You’re vs. Your” {Gotye “Somebody I...

Thu, 24 May 2012 13:07:42 -0400

“You’re vs. Your” {Gotye “Somebody I Used To Know” KILLED by Mac Lethal} (by BlackCloverRecords)

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Tue, 24 Apr 2012 11:48:27 -0400

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ilovecharts: CISPA infographic

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 14:33:44 -0400

ilovecharts:

CISPA infographic

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Fri, 06 Apr 2012 01:05:57 -0400

I think it’s about time for a long term spiritual journey that I can be separated from modern...

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 21:24:12 -0400

I think it’s about time for a long term spiritual journey that I can be separated from modern society during… I don’t know if what I believe is truly my own beliefs or whether they are all products of society’s molding of my mind.

No matter how much people so desperately strive to understand it all, no one will ever have an...

Tue, 31 Jan 2012 02:33:14 -0500

No matter how much people so desperately strive to understand it all, no one will ever have an answer. Life is so simple and fragile. One moment you could be holding life in your hands just to have it slip away no sooner than you grasped it. One important lesson I have learned is to take what you have and use it to your advantage… Make yourself happy and thrive in every moment of your existence because it isn’t timeless. There is a beginning and end to everything. You’re just a microscopic amoeba floating around in this gigantic cycle of life. Just because something may not work out does not mean that you have to give up… You simply have to keep trying different approaches until you find a solution that works! I will never let anyone trample on my positivity and outlook because it’s my foundation. I will always love and help those that ask. I will never allow myself to be darkened by anything or anyone. I will always shine the brightest that I possibly can. I will continue to learn, I will never give up.

Bounce That Dick (by JennaMarbles) I am so glad This video was...

Tue, 17 Jan 2012 18:42:42 -0500

Bounce That Dick (by JennaMarbles)

I am so glad This video was made!

A daring quest for knowledge in order to accomplish a dream “What should young people do with their...

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 23:30:00 -0500

A daring quest for knowledge in order to accomplish a dream

“What should young people do with their lives today? Many things, obviously, but the most daring thing is to create stable communities in which the terrible disease of loneliness can be cured.” Kurt Vonnegut, the author of this quote, just like every author attempts, is to put words on paper to shape a world, it is my imagination that takes those words and makes them real in relation to my own experiences. Everyone does this, associates things in order to better understand. Each of our realities is shaped by our experiences and every experience is unique. What has led me to be where and who I am today is because of a vast web of circumstances I have encountered, both enjoyable and difficult. Through every situation, I have found a little bit more about myself each time. That’s how life works I believe, we are thrown the most unexpected conditions so that we can attempt to solve it in different ways, if it works then we move on, and if it doesn’t then we keep trying. In the end of each of our existences we have to come to terms with everything we have done in our lives, I simply want what I do to be remembered, as do many others, we all want to feel important in some way, otherwise what would be the meaning of it all? I want to be remembered for helping others, for spreading love and compassion when so many are afraid to do so.

Growing up in a small town, where everyone knows each other was difficult for me because I strove so hard to blend in, but in the end I just stood out. It isn’t easy being different; especially when very few will try and understand or accept it. I always did rise to challenges however, it wasn’t easy to overcome the insecurities I developed, but I’m glad I never gave up. I eventually moved on, but the next place I encountered wasn’t very different. I came to realize that my peers that saw and disliked me without even having any idea who I truly was, were simply just afraid. Perhaps it was jealousy, but the point is, they all saw something in me that made them want to test the waters, find my weaknesses and attempt to twist those weaknesses to make me frail. Their mission failed, I realized those weaknesses and turned them into strengths. There are bullies everywhere; we each encounter one at some point in our lives; in school, the workplace, even in our own families. Not everyone can manipulate the situation to make it positive, but somehow I found a way, and I moved on without becoming negative or malicious like them.

Eventually I came to live in a city with a population of around eighty thousand people. The culture was incredible, I was blown away. This city is called Santa Fe, New Mexico, famous in its own right. The previous place I called home was merely a tenth of the population of Santa Fe, it was certainly something new to behold. Excitement is the only word that can most simply explain how I felt about moving to such a place. However, I had many misconceptions of what this place was. Everyone I had talked to about this place made it seem like a fairy tale, a place so unreal and beautiful that no one ever wants to leave. Perhaps it’s just that no one can escape, due to the mounting poverty of half the population. I found Santa Fe to be just as beautiful as described, with mountains surrounding the city, and the people just as wonderful as the scenery. It seemed almost surreal. Even though most of the people had very little in terms of material possessions, they all seemed to be so wealthy and the happiness that seemed to flow from everyone created the atmosphere of genuine compassion and contentment that settled upon the humble city. This place is where I truly discovered how to see the uniqueness of each individual. Everyone stood out. Every individual I encountered at first was so vibrant and full of life. Then as I grew older I came to see the reality that was hidden behind a curtain, shading my childish eyes from the harshness of the rest of the world. I began to hear about murders, drugs and corruption. My world was turned upside down. I met people that encouraged partying and drug use. Where were the boundaries that I had so carefully laid before my feet? Everything seemed so hazy, confusion and unrest began to set in. Where was anyone to tell me right from wrong? It was up to me to decide my fate, and my future.

When parents are too busy with their own lives to be a part of their children’s, what happens? Those children create their own rules, make their own decisions and determine what, who and how they want to be. Once someone has absolute freedom, or so they believe, they will never allow it to be taken; from that moment on they are the ones in control of their lives. How quickly it can be taken away though is not something that every child will ponder. Luckily, I didn’t have a child-like mentality any longer, I wanted to be mature, make the right decisions. Even though my parents hardly tried to be present in my life, I did my best to learn from the guidance I was given when I did receive it. I learned very important lessons early in life, which I am thankful for now. I learned how to be strong, never give up and that I can accomplish anything I truly want. There are no limits, only the ones that you create for yourself. I have dreams that some say can never be accomplished, but that won’t stop me from trying anyway.

I am here today to continue to learn, I am on a quest for knowledge and knowledge is power. There is infinite knowledge in the universe, little known and much to be discovered. Everyone has to take steps in order to get where they want, and college is one of the many steps on my way to accomplishment. Each journey I have been on thus far has led me to where I am today. I had to take steps to learn what I needed to know in order to reach this point in my life, and I feel ready to be here. I have a dream that one day the world will be filled with happiness, compassion and hope. I want to spread my wisdom to others, just as I want others to continue to teach me, challenge me and help me to become a better person. Perhaps if someone is unafraid to be open and compassionate, others will follow. There are so many possibilities, I prefer to think optimistically.

I feel obligated to vote in the next election, but how can I possibly when I know all of the...

Sun, 11 Dec 2011 21:51:37 -0500

I feel obligated to vote in the next election, but how can I possibly when I know all of the corruption lying behind the scenes of the presidential campaigns? I demand REFORM instantly from this disturbing way that lobbyists control the government.

Life seems so much more difficult and bland since I began to feel so lonely. Where are all the good...

Sun, 04 Dec 2011 19:25:10 -0500

Life seems so much more difficult and bland since I began to feel so lonely. Where are all the good people?

So I seem to find myself at a crossroad…the determination of what my future has in store could...

Tue, 22 Nov 2011 20:24:02 -0500

So I seem to find myself at a crossroad…the determination of what my future has in store could rely on this decision…but then again, how much could it really change? I’ve never felt so indecisive, but I believe I know what I must do.

Life is simple

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 03:06:54 -0400

Life is simple

General assembly meeting at SITE Santa Fe at 5:30 in order to decide march route and present working...

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 19:07:37 -0400

General assembly meeting at SITE Santa Fe at 5:30 in order to decide march route and present working group information.